Almost everyone who knows me, knows I have a baby sister. She’s 12 years old and she came into my life when I was 15 years old. I remember reading my moms pregnancy test to her telling her she was pregnant…I was so excited. My mom was well she was close to 40 with two teenage kids…she was worried and not sure what to expect.
Lovely ended up being THE best blessing to our family. Not too long after Lovely was born, we lost my dad to Cirrhosis. Her existence gave my mom so much purpose to continue on. Yes my brother and I were too but there’s something about a toddler that kept our life so busy that we honestly didn’t have time to be so sad.
After losing my dad, my mom become the head of our household, which means she was working 6-7 days a week. This meant that A LOT of the responsibility of raising Lovely fell on me. Although, there was a time that I felt so much resentment towards my family and her because of this…I quickly realize what a blessing she was to me.
Lovely allowed me to step into a mother role at a young age. It was hard. So hard to be a teenager and raise a kid. So I have so much respect for teenage moms. I missed out a lot of my teenage years because I was really mothering a child. But let me tell you, I wouldn’t trade it for the world because of my special bond with my sister. We’re literally two peas in a pod and if I hadn’t been forced to mother her, I don’t think we would have been this close.
She’s my best friend, my daughter, my shopping partner, my therapist, my dog sitter so I can nap, she cleans my house for me, she’s my favorite person in the whole world, and literally my world. I feel more connected to her than any human I know because it’s almost as if she’s my kid. I gotta protect her always. She’s been on dates with me. She’s been to friend gatherings with me. She’s been to so many places and been with me through so much that she’s my person.
Funny story, when she was about 4 or 5, she would always call me mom in public or cry when guys try talking to me. Yup, she was a little c-blocker then.
Although these days she’s a sassy teenager, she still remains my baby. Every time I look at her, I beam with pride because of the person she’s grown up to be. I soooo pat myself on the back a lot let me tell you lol. She’s so smart, so goal driven, has so much integrity, she’s kind, she’s compassionate, she doesn’t give a crap about what people think…she’s so unapologetically and authentically herself that I’m just like yaaaass queen (she loved this phrase)!!! I didn’t screw her up lol. Gah, I love her so much!
Lovely, if you’re reading this, which you totally are because you’re a nosy little sister, I just want you to know you’re the best sister/daughter ever lol. You make my world better just being in it. You help me out so much, more than you know. I hope you continue to grow into a strong, courageous and kind human being. I hope you use your voice for the right reasons. I hope you never ever let someone walk all over you which I doubt because you have so much self respect. I hope one day you won’t judge me for wearing a body suit. I also hope you own one someday because you realize it does keep your shirt tucked in the whole time. But overall, I hope you know I am always here for you and I’m always going to love you even when I’m being mean to you❤️❤️❤️